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Proactive Possibilities

I spend a lot of time seeing if I can do things. And then, once I prove them possible, I stop. The impetus always seems to lie in my proving that nothing is impossible or forbidden. But where I’d like to see myself end up is knowing all that I can and am and moving into using that to go where I want. I want to be proactive with my life.

Creatively weaving all of anything that serves me into a bigger purpose.Proactive Possibilities on Shalavee.com

If I an the Ambassador of Creativity, what do I want to do to lead people toward their creative purposes? How can I have fun and construct my own creative purpose this way? Does it look like those FB videos I started and decided I could do? Does it lie in the book that I don’t want to want to write? Is it workshops or public speaking?Proactive Possibilities on Shalavee.com

Instead of reacting to my life and avoiding all the ideas that I think I should be pursuing, I’d like to be meeting each step with exuberance and hope. That isn’t how I’ve ever done life but I get the feeling it can be done. What do you think?

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How I Survived the Speech

So I signed up to give a talk on the Inverse Relationship Between Creativity and Anxiety at my UU church this month. One of my learned life hacks is that if I need to do something, I just need to give my word to someone and I’ll do it. (I told one person I would sing an acapella song I had written at my wedding and so I did it. )And this public speech I gave was just a means to getting me to pen my theory.

I needed to get myself through it. I knew it wasn’t going to be perfect, ever, but I needed to do it anyway. And so I stopped and wrote these:

Reasons that I Need Not Feel Afraid to do This Speech

  • Once I say it out loud, I’ll have heard myself say it out loud
  • It will give substance, validity to my thoughts and my theory itself
  • I am being visible and vulnerable for all the women who don’t feel they can
  • I am a role model, a leader, and an ambassador to creativity
  • The words I have written are well said, no matter how I rearrange them and edited them

Plus the fact that the following day, I was scheduled for a slightly scary medical procedure involving multiple needles in my backside. So it couldn’t top that for ouchiness.How I Survived the Speech on shalavee.com

So that when I went in to give the speech, I just smiled a lot. And I sped up like we all do when giving a speech. Worse yet, someone asked me to slow down. Yikes. But I still felt whole for having gotten there and delivered my thoughts. I was grateful for the opportunity to advance my theory.

Sometimes the Thing isn’t really the thing. We have to be smart and brave enough to get through the scary moments so that we can celebrate the bigger wins later. Because courage is being afraid and doing it anyway, proving you can, and finding out you won’t die in the process.

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Having My Butt Exposed

This was that week. The week when everything came to a head. When all my plans to be vulnerable, my butt exposed both mentally and physically, came to fruition. I sat back for a few days to digest the events, see if the results I had hoped for were achieved. Was all the risk and pain worth it?

Yes.

Having My Butt Exposed on Shalavee.com

I put my original creative thoughts about the connection between intentional creativity and the reduction of anxiety down onto paper and read them aloud. Was my presentation delivered well? Not necessarily. But I released a thought that I believe in out into the world. And for this risk of vulnerability, I am extremely proud. You have to start even if it isn’t pretty.Having My Butt Exposed on Shalavee.com

I also literally had my butt out in a drafty operating room receiving multiple injections to cauterize the nerves in my SI joint and cease the pain that plagues me. There were probably six people in that room. None of them cared that my large fish belly white butt was exposed. They were there for their own knowledge and competency.Having My Butt Exposed on Shalavee.com

But when it was all over, I had the opportunity to have lunch with my husband and be in one of my favorite places in my hometown of Baltimore. Fells Point has changed and yet it still holds this Dickensian charm of an old world industrial city port and I felt satisfied, physically and mentally.Having My Butt Exposed on Shalavee.com

I foresaw my fears and did it all anyway. I looked to the future and knew that, without these risks to be vulnerable, I’d never truly be happy. I’d just be guarding against the pain. And that is not how I want to live. So I risk the pain of vulnerability and surround myself with my people cheering me on. And it feels more real than ever before.Having My Butt Exposed on Shalavee.com

Thank you for your support through all of these trials. My hopes are that you are encouraged to be vulnerable and courageous in your own lives. That I can help to foster your own self-trust and pride. And we can keep being visible together.

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And, as always, Thanks to you for your visit.

The End of My Icad (index Card a Day) ’18 Challenge

All the daily creativity came to a screeching halt nearly a week ago with the last day of July and the 61st card. With the combined 100 day project and this one, I had created every day for 118 days straight. I felt neither overly happy nor sad for the halt. I had fulfilled my challenge to myself. But I must admit that I have felt slightly untethered since then. A feeling that was echoed by at least one other artist who had done the challenge with me.

Day #1 through Day #22 of the ICAD challenge

Day #1 through Day #22 of the ICAD ’18 Challenge

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Day #23 through #42 of the ICAD ’18 Challenge

The End of ICAD '18 Challenge on Shalavee.com

Day #43 through Day #61 of the ICAD ’18 Challenge

I considered that I could and should replace that daily habit with some other intention. But that was swallowed up in a flurry of Summer activities which were all good. But I am also asking this of myself, why does it take an outside “force” to get me to commit to the art. What about being obliged to myself? Or perhaps, what do I create in my life that makes me accountable to regular artwork?

Our creative needs are ours to fulfill. And if it requires a little trickery on our parts to get ourselves to creatively comply, so be it. Any challenge is good even if that means creating your own like I did in June for the Our Creative June Challenge, well then let’s do it again together. I live for a creative community and I think everyone deserves to have one of their own.The End of ICAD '18 Challenge on Shalavee.com

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And, as always, Thanks to you for your visit.

Life as an Uber Creative

Is that there’s too many things you’d like to devote your creative attention to?

When I was younger, I considered acting. I considered music. I thought about art for a long time before I finally allowed myself to practice it. And I have now indulged my writer enough that she feels calm. But other parts of me loiter around like groupies waiting for a break. My photographer is resigned to get her chance in my retirement years.

 I finally adopted my new self definition as uber creative three years ago in 2015 and wrote this funny piece about my busy-brained eagerness to create it all. And since then I have also discovered that I am an over-worker. This stress and fear coping mechanism is otherwise known as Industrial Over-Focused. I can see how I combined my fear coping mechanism and my creative drive and added a little fear of visibility,perfectionism and have made my uber-creativity into a bad combination affliction.Life as an Uber-Creative on Shalavee.com

I believe that you can never have too much creativity in your life and that if you actually allow your intuition to make more choices for only you in your life, you’d be way more stress free. But combining a need to please and get it right with the need to create can ruin the joy of creativity for anyone.

I looked up the concept of Uber Creative on the internet and found a very interesting article that has 14 ideas on how to be an Uber Creative here. Who doesn’t need outside inspiration at some point? Just as creating for others instead of yourself isn’t any fun, neither is creating in a vacuum.Life as an Uber-Creative on Shalavee.com

So a Huzzah to everyone who wants to create and hello to my fellow Uber Creatives ! There’s no better balm for your soul than creativity. I encourage you to write your secret creative desires down out of earshot of your inner critical parent. And then trick the parent into signing a permission slip to indulge your inner child in a little playtime and see what happens.  Everyone is actually creative (capable of combining new ideas together essentially) and that once we embrace the meaning of creativity as a way of living and not a perfect product, the world will shift.

And If you enjoyed what you read, subscribe, via the subscription box in the sidebar, to my thrice weekly posts via your emailbox. And visit me on Instagram to see my daily pictures, friend me or like my page on Facebook. Or come find me on Twitter orPinterest too. I am always practicing Intentional Intouchness so chat at me please. I live for conversations.

And, as always, Thanks to you for your visit.

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