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I have been on a journey all of my life to find out who I truly am. This self-discovery journey consists of equal parts honesty, authenticity, pain, and writing. And I am committed to it until the day I am no longer here.
I’m sure no one wants to hear this but I have spent an inordinate amount of time and effort trying to convince myself that I have worth. My inner parent has compassion for my inner child. She had it rough and truly wants her to feel better. But my inner girl is a tough little…
Wild Asters by Sara Teasdale In the spring I asked the daisies If his words were true, And the clever, clear-eyed daisies Always knew. Now the fields are brown and barren, Bitter autumn blows, And of all the stupid asters Not one knows I allow the wild asters to grow rampantly in my garden. They…
My friends and I met last night for a small check-in and chat. And we discovered that we’re all reaching a place where we want to reconnect and return to our social places and people. We miss our “others’ and who we are when we are with them. We’re ready to let go of the…
I was raised by know-it-alls who, no surprise, expected me to know-it-all. And I tried, really I did. I watched and learned how to be liked. I achieved knowledge enough to converse with anyone about anything. I even aspired to make Dean’s list in college only to find out it was way too much stress…
A “Good Day” is one where my children don’t give me a hard time. “Yes Mom” and “Sure Mom”, “How can I help Mom” they say. When I have slept without my body waking me up from some sort of weird pain. A day that is not overbooked and everything rolls out as planned. A…
I’m perhaps a little stunned that this year is feeling so much more normal. The flower garden is growing and asking me for the attention that usually overwhelms me as we head into May, the super busy month. I’d like to have gotten more done before the heat wave hit but I’m hoping for some…
Searching for that indisputable unshakeable truth that l am the shit verses I am shit. I have been paying attention to the very wrongest things. So easy to stay in the judgment pit and ruminate on the wrongs in my life, my house, and my body especially. Caught up in what’s wrong with me, there’s…
I’m known as an ambassador to creativity. I firmly believe in the soul altering powers of honoring and co-creation with your muse. I also really wanted to believe that creativity was the way out of my anxiety. But as hard as I tried, I just couldn’t quell my anxieties with my creativity. That’s a simplified…
Kneeling on a chair cushion yesterday jamming dirt under my nails as I pulled weeds from my brick walkway, I had one of those garden/life analogies. While the grass clumps came out rather easily sometimes leaving a worm suddenly homeless, the dandelions dared me to yank them. Their tap roots going deeply down between those…
I have a hard time believing. Raised by anxious agnostics with low self-esteem and a Depression mindset of scarcity who betrayed me, I have a hard time believing. In January, I started a dietary and awareness adjustment program called Noom. It’s a great program because it comes from a psychological perspective, which I love. The…
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