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Realizations During This Un-busy Season

Unattached to our auto-busyness, I think we’re realizing that we have a lot more power to choose our lives than we formerly thought. We can live our best lives proactively, thoughtfully, and consciously. You’d think we’d be dancing in the streets for realizing this freedom, but we are all such control freaks that freedom’s a bit of a scary concept.

Here’s what I’ve noticed shifting or not in me recently.

No matter how much time I have, I never seem to have enough to read. Still.

If I put an activity on a calendar or a list however, it gets done.Realizations During This Un-busy Season on Shalavee.com

If I plan my meals for the week, I feel freer and often get a little ahead with some prep.

When I exercise, I feel like I gave myself love and wings.

I am using more of what I have on hand and not wanting as much … but new clothing is still necessary.

I am less scared to have my kids home for the Summer than usual because I have found ways that I can get my alone time needs met by setting boundaries and asking others to help.Realizations During This Un-busy Season on Shalavee.com

I still hate obligations like dentist appointments but now they’re more adventurous.

The world is too loud and confusing so I am still in need of no news. I feel what I need to learn the most can only be heard in the silence inside myself.

Compassion is always the way through.

Here’s a post from the same time a year ago and it’s interesting how it’s all the same except I hear the overwhelm.

Hope you are holding up well. I have wonderful achievements coming to share. This Friday is the publishing of an essay I am proud of on the Lessons I Learned in Lockdown. And the 100 Day project will be wrapping up in two weeks!

 

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Grow Through What You Go Through

Grow through what you go through.

The best way out is always though.

For me, the largest shift happened not because I chose for it to happen

But because I stopped stopping it from happening.

My story two years ago,

The Fear shield comes up.

It disallows all the work I’ve done prior to matter.

Infantalizing me, ignoring all my efforts, it insists it needs to keep me safe in its way.

But I’ve done all of this work i say. I’ve studied and thought and grieved to get here.

Let me pass.

But there was always an impasse. Until l introduced anti-anxiety medication into my equation.

Then an unexpected shift happened.

I felt less resistance to my thoughts and dreams. My perpetual daily fear tape stopped running.

And I began to feel hope and movement.

Growth wanted to happen. It took all my learning and knowledge and applied it.

And fear took a back seat.

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And, as always, Thanks to you for your visit.

A Sunday Catch-Up about Me

I’ve found myself a little quieter recently. Not just wanting to write for writing’s sake but to have something to say when I do. Something meaningful to me and to you. It’s not as if I haven’t ceased being busy. The kids are still home even if it has just turned Summer. At least I don’t need to nag my 7 year old to do her work and watch her cry. But there is still a heaviness as we manage their need for socializing.

I’m slowly working my way through creatrix and mentor Anna Lovind’s Creative Doer course, finding an understanding of what my inner productive creative needs to do to move onward. It seems I can tread water forever but I like having projects. So it’s time for me to self-lead myself to the next one.

A Sunday Catch-Up about Me

And what I found as I am listening to the lessons and and the meditations is that my urge is to create a place and a feeling of welcoming for people who need to be heard, to feel safe, and to decide to take their power back and make a life change. I want to create space for people to feel safe and to listen.

There are many technological advances that have opened up the communications for us during this lockdown. I want to explore what I would feel most comfortable with if I were searching for community. I am listening and looking for signs of my next step.

Meanwhile, I have also worked on creating connections with other bloggers and writers and there’ll be another essay published on Julia Barnicle’s sight soom. I’ll let you know when I know.

And I have just passed my 75th day of my 100 Day Project. So that’s a thing I need to share too. Talk at you soon!

And If you enjoyed what you read, subscribe, via the subscription box in the sidebar, to my thrice weekly posts via your emailbox. And visit me on Instagram to see my daily pictures, friend me or like my page on Facebook. Or come find me on Twitter or Pinterest too. I am always practicing Intentional Intouchness so chat at me please. I live for conversations.

And, as always, Thanks to you for your visit.

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