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In the Process : No Worry, Scurry, or Hurry

Beyond the lovey afterglow of our holiday happenings, what I’m enjoying the most is the lack of worrying about pretty much everything. I used to run on my anxiety. I’d wake in the morning and consider all the ways in which I’d already failed. But my new medication has got me waking up to see what the day will bring. And that is a good thing.

No more hurry, scurry, and worry. Just be in the process.

I used to make lists at the end of the day of all that I did just to give myself credit for my work. Now I approach the day with the attitude of whatever I get done gets done. I’m not as concerned about what needs doing as long as I’m engaged in doing it. And this reminded me of the concept that it is never about the results but always about the process. Because life itself is a process. Yes, if you keep going, eventually you will reach the completion of a task. But the gratifying part is the work. As soon as you finish reading a book,your are sad because there is no more.

I dragged the crunchy Christmas tree outside and stripped it of it’s lights today. And I plucked the little electric Christmas candles from our windows. I dragged my slothlike body back to the YMCA and burned 300 calories on the elliptical. And spent some time prepping salad mix for the upcoming week of salads I will be eating. All without a thought as to how incompetent or fat I am today. All without speeding here or there or angsting over what I can’t do today.

When I get my daughter off the bus, that will prove the more trying part of my day. The rush of changing to go back to ballet tonight. But tomorrow, a sweet silent day to wile away as I please focusing on anything that I deem most important at the moment. No worry, no scurry, no hurry on Shalavee.com

When I get my daughter off the bus, that will prove the more trying part of my day. The rush of changing to go back to ballet tonight. But tomorrow, a sweet silent day to while away as I please focusing on anything that I deem most important at the moment. No worry, no scurry, no hurry.

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A Date with My Husband and A Visit to the City

Mark and I had an opportunity to steal away for a lunch date this weekend. Our son was at a reunion for a Summer Leadership Workshop Camp at UMBC (University of Maryland Baltimore County) and our daughter was still hanging out after a sleepover with her surrogate sister.

We miss our hometown and our old neighborhood of Hampden in Baltimore. And I randomly opened my phone on Google Maps and saw a restaurant calling itself a “trucksteraunt’ and I was done. I got to ride up through my city along the Jones Falls, an old river under the city. I adore the old stone mills and houses and graffiti.A Date with My Husband and A Visit to the City on Shalavee.com

A Date with My Husband and A Visit to the City on Shalavee.com

We pulled up to the unassuming restaurant that is actually a funky little building with the kitchen in the food truck ! Gypsy’s trucksteraunt is as cute as it could be. There was a little stove and a lounge ares with a stuffed life-size cat on a chair. But I was super wowed by the bottle wall between the two spaces. I am a sucker for fun design.

The food and bar menu were funky and fun. The service people were lovely and we weren’t misled by the recommendation to choose the house specialties. I had fries and pulled pork in a waffle cone. And I can not kidding when I say it was junk food heaven meant to be eaten out of the cone on the street. Because Gypsy’s takes the meat to the street. And Mark’s Korean Fried Chicken was chicken nuggets on some fun spiced cabbage atop the hand cut fries with aoli inside the actual ice cream waffle cone, sweet and yummy.

A Date with My Husband and A Visit to the City on Shalavee.com

The date was such a yummy success. I miss the days of adventures with my husband and this was close to our old life but new to us. And then a quick drive through the old hood revealed much has changed. Many more hip shops and boutiques and eateries. It makes me happy and sad. Happy for the residents, sad that we no longer can enjoy the hipster hang outs of the city.

I rushed into an antiques shop and grabbed a couple trinkets to remember our journey and then we were off to gather up our children via highways and byways and take them home. I was so happy that all of us went our separate ways that day to find out about who we are in the world without one another.A Date with My Husband and A Visit to the City on Shalavee.com

I miss the city terribly sometimes but I also know that one day, we may return more often when our children are bigger. For now I can only enjoy a rare jaunt into it to remember. And see it with new eyes.

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Remembering My Intention for Connection

As many of you know, I stumbled this year. I tripped over my expectations of what I should feel and should be doing. I fell on my face and got caught in a spiral of self-doubt.

Luckily, I’ve had enough practice at self-care to jump in quickly and take care of me. This spell took me for a three-day grief ride so I decided to call on the big guns. I’ve been on anti-anxiety meds for over a month now and it has made an immense difference in the quality of life. Remembering My Intention for Connection on Shalavee.com

I have never felt this OK. Even though I couldn’t hear the exact words, there was always a background noise of judgment and fear playing. I now don’t feel at a deficit daily. I am able to feel accomplished when I complete tasks. These footholds are helping me rebuild my platform again on which I can stand with my thoughts and my words.

After my spell, I generally had just let go of everything I was looking at to do. I just couldn’t carry the burdens of expectations that I may never be able to fill or that may have been created by the me that did the things that I “should” do instead of being excited for the things I “could” do.

Today I fell upon my life’s Intention I crafted last year and I am reminded again that we are not alone. We are in fact meant to be here for one another in supporting witnessing roles. To remind one another of our humanity.Remembering My Intention for Connection on Shalavee.com

This is what I wrote for my intention. “I am connecting with and positively seeing my wiser self as I engage in conversations with like-minded people, telling and listening to our stories and lending permission for others to tell theirs.”

I’ve been thinking that this year, 2019, is the year to reach out and seek out more like-minded souls so that we both and all may feel connected on a more compassionate level. To focus on what we share and celebrate our oneness.

And If you enjoyed what you read, subscribe, via the subscription box in the sidebar, to my thrice weekly posts via your emailbox. And visit me on Instagram to see my daily pictures, friend me or like my page on Facebook. Or come find me on Twitter or Pinterest too. I am always practicing Intentional Intouchness so chat at me please. I live for conversations.

And, as always, Thanks to you for your visit.

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