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Knowing Myself Will Connect Me To You

It continuously occurs to me that the better I know myself, the better I can understand my value to the world and to you whoever you might be. When I connect with me I can connect with you. And becoming myself is one of the hardest things I’ve ever had to do.

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I envy those people (all except the narcissists) for knowing what they are and the strengths that they bring to what they do in their lives. What a gift to have such confidence in what you are, your strengths, your gifts, and your purpose. No, not everyone has this.

Some, like me, grew up with hazy mirrors reflecting back their self-worth. Or no mirrors. And it can be very difficult to build something when you don’t have a recipe or a plan for it. Why would you even try or know where to begin?

Becoming myself is one of the hardest things I’ve ever had to do.

We had a little old cat who was skittish and had never been petted. Until one day I snuck a pet in. And she liked it. A lot. It took her 15 years to find out how great affection was. And then she was a pet junkie. How do you know something even exists unless you have felt it? Same with self-esteem. 

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Building self-esteem is like building something from air sometimes. You take it on faith that you need to build self-esteem and that it will work if you keep working it but it’s an act of faith. Without the faith you’re worth it,  you’re not. See? Your actions prove your value but your value isn’t there yet. What I have noticed recently is that the surer I feel about myself, the easier it is to speak with others. I come from a place of knowing and this brings me ease. And I am all about the ease.

I don’t doubt my need for self-esteem building so that I may understand my weight and purpose in this world. Knowing and fulfilling my value to my fellow humans is one of the most important tasks/jobs I will ever have. And so I fight ever onward in the invisible storm of developing myself.

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Keep Aware of Your Dreams

Last night I had a dream that I was being challenged by a short red-eyed robot girl who might have had red hair too. I topped that dream with a waitress dream. The one where I can’t put my waitressing uniform together or find a ticket book or a pen to take the orders.

Thankfully, I woke up after telling everyone to evacuate the area which was under attack by an army. But I now know the robot girl is Fiona. I am keenly aware of my subconscious today. How about you?





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Reject the Meritocracy and Embrace Your Who-ness

I had a dream once where I heard myself say,”You are your purpose, you are your reason why.” I woke up and knew it was prophetic. But I didn’t yet believe it.

But then yesterday, I had a similar profound thought. What if my purpose on this earth is just to be me and that gave others permission to be themselves? What if living and thriving actually looked like doing all those things I love to do. Connecting and communication with people and talking about self-development, creativity, and authenticity.

I always assumed that a life’s work meant that you have to do things you despise for people you tolerate. But what if my value is for who I am, my who-ness, and not for my accomplishments per se. I read a quote recently that said to be aware and question if not reject the Meritocracy where we are always measured by our achievements. No wonder we strive endlessly and burn out. We are human doings dying to earn our human being badge.

My value is based on who I am. Pretty radical thinking I’d say. And as long as I stay the truest to that and keep myself inside my protective bubble I’ve termed my soul buffer zone, I am living the best life I can for me. Not for others and their expectations of who they think I should be. But mine.

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