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Gardening Mojo

Since I had Fiona, I have been unable to regain my gardening mojo. The very thing that brought me to buy a house, dirt to plant a garden in, had become a burden I was buried under. Looking every year at my overgrown garden overwhelmed and depressed me.

Last year, I made a charitable donation and received a garden consultation. And this spurred me into enthusiastic gardening action that I hadn’t felt in a while. I head “I could” again.

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I worked on a couple beds last Summer. And this year, I’ve picked back up where I left off. I recently ordered some more charitable plants and with the onset of lovely Spring weather, I set about clearing the section under my weeping cherry tree where I plan to plant them all.

I can use anything to make me feel bad about me . My undisciplined kids, my unruly garden, my messy house, or my stuck career. But it only requires a moment to make a plan and schedule a few action steps and suddenly I don’t feel like I’m actually stuck anymore. If instead of spending the time I would ruminating on what a loser I am , I instead take any action, plan any step to better the situation, I feel immediately better.

It seems that all it takes to change is the willingness to do so and one action to prove it’s possible. You are as successful or as stuck as your brain says you are. So today, I am less stuck ad one more step towards having a better garden.

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The Courage to Create

Our windows are open. I’ve been laying awake n the morning listening to the birdsong. All different types of birds adding their unique love of life to the world. No need for permission to sing or be. Just singing and being.

Collaging daily is coming easier fore this year’s 100 day project. It feels easy to just create. A dozen days in and I do not care what the pieces look like. I am only happy to engage in the process and just be creating.

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“Remember that in choosing to create you have acted with a rare courage. You have let down the mask; you have called forth your best self; you have taken a chance and revealed your heart to the world. This, no matter how struggling and unformed the creation it brings forth, is a praiseworthy act. For all creation is an act of love, and in the merest making of your art you have, in your own small way, made the world a little richer, a little warmer, and a little more filled with love.”


Kent Nerburn – Dancing with the Gods (thanks to Tara Leaver for quoting)

Anything that you do daily becomes not only habitual but ritual. There’s a sense of purposeful clarity on our daily promises to ourselves. Remove the negotiation and the act becomes a prayer for a better life. There is nothing more noble that a commitment to ones happiness.

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Happy to have you with me on my journey as I let down my mask …

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A Shame about the Gain

I woke up this morning in a mad at myself mood. I felt shame. I felt shame about my shame. Today was the day that I was going to cancel my Weight Watchers subscription. Because I would have been doing it for 2 months and lost my holiday weight. The weight ‘d allowed myself to gain because I knew I could do Weight Watchers! But I’m the one who gained weight on Weight Watchers!


Yup. 


So sick of being sick of myself. I feel ashamed because I don’t want my body to define me. I want body neutrality. That place where I forget to judge myself for this old lady body I’m suddenly walking around in.

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I cringe to write this. I’ve been here before. The struggle to live where we are while allowing for the change is ever present. Except we can’t move unless we accept where we are. 


I have spent a lifetime of giving up on myself. So I decided to not cancel the subscription, ie. give up, and keep going. It is my fear of change and lack that keeps me from succeeding. I have a few updated tactics like “don’t act like I can go off my point count on the weekends”. And “do more core strengthening exercises weekly”. And find someone to be accountable to.


Everybody hates to hear a sad story. In this case the non-losing losing story. We want a winning story! But I also believe that self-compassion and authenticity are the only way to banish our shame. So I hand this all to you because my humanity is worth forgiving. And I’ma gonna keep on being me no matter how imperfectly I do it.

And If you enjoyed what you read, subscribe, via the subscription box in the sidebar, to my thrice weekly posts via your emailbox. And visit me on Instagram to see my daily pictures, friend me or like my page on Facebook. Or come find me on Twitter or Pinterest too. I am always practicing Intentional Intouchness so chat at me please. I live for conversations.

And, as always, Thanks to you for your visit.

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