I Deserve to Feel Joy and Comfort in My Body

I have occupied this female flesh body for 58 years. Life navigation within this mysterious bunch of girl cells, nerves, and stickiness has been a tough discovery of my biological hiccups. Although I had a zesty sex life in my younger years, I need you to know that I only first felt entitled to feel the pleasure my body can experience when I started BIHRT (bio-identical hormone replacement therapy) last year.

I Wanted to Be Happy, Not Miserable

My marriage had long been lagging in the joy department, and I wanted a life experience with more pleasure, less pain, and no hot flashes. Within a couple weeks on BIHRT, I felt more sexually empowered than I had since my twenties. There was a profound transformation and reignition of my female sexual self that I did not expect.

This experience has answered so many questions that I didn’t know I needed to ask. Also, so many ethical and moral incongruencies suddenly showed themselves. There’s grief and rage and there’s so much love for myself and women.

I am now living from within my body.

We are meant to love and feel joy and yes, pleasure. We have bodies that are instruments of joy that we treat like indentured slaves working off a life sentence of grief we inherited from our mothers. What a horrid life sentence. I am saying, “No thank you.”

There’s so much more to this conversation. And now that I’m all hopped up on testosterone, I’m gaining that ridiculous male courage to go and talk about my experience of my BIHRT. Because everyone deserves permission to feel joy and comfort in their own bodies.

I am not defined by what you see but how I feel inside this one and only body of mine.

I am not defined by what you see but how I feel inside this one and only body of mine. And I’m going to talk, write, laugh, and please my damn self until I’m well into my 90’s when it may actually kill me. I am now living from within my body.

Coming Soon! To share my thoughts on these more private and specifically personal matters, I will be creating a paywall on My Wisdom Lessons Substack in the near future to create a seperate space to talk about my experiences with my hormone replacement therapy and related topics. Those not interested will be spared and can continue reading free posts!

(This was originally published on February 18th on My Wisdom Lessons Substack account. This currently where I am gathering readership if you’d like to find, join, and subscribe to me there for up-to-date life story posts.)