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Grabbing the Opportunity to Not Betray Myself

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I said I’d write and/or edit. I’d take the opportunity to make a piece of art with all this free time daycare provides me. But it would be so easy to blow myself off. Since I’m distracted after all, I might as well just do my laundry instead of sitting down to write or create. There’s always tomorrow and the day after. And every time I go and do that, I let myself down. I substantiate my unworthiness.

 

We can be such unreliable parents to ourselves. We mean no harm. There is in fact a lot we’re juggling and our priorities can get confused. But in the end, I know I chose fear over my creativity when I do that. I’m not fooling myself.

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I might as well stand up and shout out the window, “I’m unworthy !!!”. Of spending time on and with. Of the dreams that I have hidden in my smallest pockets. Of the tender words and thoughts that deserve to be shared so that others may be allowed to say “Ahhh” or “Aha” or “thank you for putting words to how I feel”.

 

If I don’t gently and courageously nudge and urge my fearful self to stand in the light and say what I need to say with my words and my pictures then what I’m saying is that I’m unworthy of being heard. And I don’t think that’s true.Grabbing the Opportunity to Not Betray Myself on Shalavee.com

 

So, for myself and all the others that have yet to find the courage, I will show up today for myself. And Listen to what it is I have to say.

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A Controlled Creative Climate

For the longest time, I have wanted my own creative space. I have carved them out of back rooms and basements. In this house, I have use of a sun porch which we call the craft-room. It would seem that would be good enough until I can’t be in there alone without “company” and then the Summer weather makes the room unbearably hot.

But don’t be fooled, this isn’t just about the actual space to physically create in. This is also about the mental space and permission with which to be our truest selves. I have waged a battle inside that had me losing the opportunity to create regularly until now.

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When we are in a creativity mode, we need to know that we are safe. We are our inner children wanting to play uninterrupted. The irony that our actual children steals that away from us is an unfunny life joke. Seems a fair enough request to ask for regular recess in our play rooms but our inner adults often have better more productive plans for us. Eventually we give up and we resolutely stuff our “childish” desires down some dark hole in our psyche.

In my case, my inner child began to tantrum. And what I came to understand was that not only did I need to allow her to indulge in her recess, I needed to create a safe environment in which she could play free of judgements and distractions. And then she needed to trust that when she wanted to play, I’d create time and space again for her. This is exactly the process by which I’ve begun to trust myself.

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So this Summer, to further indulge my need to create safely, I’ve hired a sitter to regularly engage my daughter (CRAZY COOL) and purchased a mobile air conditioner for my craft room (COOL LIKE CRAZY). Which means I can close the door and create at will. There are no more obstacles and I feel slightly giddy.

This is how I am creating a space to grow into. Like setting an empty box down to be filled with a project of yet unnamed magnitude. I’m nervous at the prospect of having no more excuses in some ways but I’m also giddy at the notion of possibilities. And all it took was circumventing my excuses, ridding my roadblocks, and taking responsibility to keep my inner artist safe until she can come out to play.

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Purposeful Living: Shifting from “If Only” to “What If”

It’s been a slow and deliberate process to strip away all the mental clutter in my life down to the core of what really matters to me.  Truthfully, I’m sort of stunned that all this self-betterment progress has even happened. I have asked myself ” What If ” and bluffed my way towards it. I never expected to get nearer to a life that I wanted. The fact that I’m making it up every day that I live it seems such an unreliable way to change one’s life yet that is exactly the creative living that I have always needed to embrace to shift. Purposeful Living: Shifting from "If Only" to "What If" on Shalavee.com

 

The goal I’m working on the hardest is letting go of the “if only” mindset I’ve had for so long. Instead, I’m focusing on the “what ifs”. I’m shifting from a scarcity mindset where I’ve never enough anything, to one of abundance and refocusing my sight to see my life as it really is; an incredible opportunity to enjoy my freedom and creativity and find my soul-fulfilling purpose. And all of this is doable if I can stay present.

 

The biggest eureka I’ve had recently is not only that I need to open my eyes to the abundance that I am currently living, but also to acknowledge the elements in my life that I truly need every day to keep my soul fueled. Besides regular time to be creative, and the intention to recognize and entertain that, I also need connection to community. Because both in the act of creating and communicating, I find connections to myself and to what I enjoy doing and being. The resonance of a further purpose follows these clarity moments.Purposeful Living: Shifting from "If Only" to "What If" on Shalavee.com

 

Once you understand yourself and trust yourself within the context of your everyday functioning and happiness, then you can make choices that are larger than you which make a difference. Your basic needs always precede your higher purpose. Everything falls into place when you self-care the heck out of yourself.

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Our Creative May is Almost Done

As my create everyday in the month of May continues, I have been proud to say I almost showed up everyday to make art. And I remember again that I am creative every day in so many ways that are equally important even if they don’t involve traditional art supplies.

The last time I did this, I definitely worked the one theme concept and was truly successful at creating a body of work on one subject with one medium / mixed media. But I wanted to keep it low key this time. Just wanted to prove that with intention, I could do something everyday. And I am happy that I did. Our Creative May is Almost Done

Our Creative May is Almost Done

Our Creative May is Almost Done

Our Creative May is Almost Done

Our Creative May is Almost Done

Our Creative May is Almost Done

Did I come up with any clever ideas on future projects? Nope. But I’ve added to a growing amount of artwork and cards and I created. That’s what’s important here. Not that everyone is gaga over everything I do and liking me for it. The idea is that my inner child’s need to play is being honored. And I have to touch that feeling regularly or I am lost.

Let me not forget to mention that there were other lovely people who joined in this month of making with me. I am always flattered and thrilled to have company on any of my endeavors and I will share some of their work in my wrap up at the end of the month.

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Our Creative May

Our Creative May has started off with a bang. This was a month-long creativity challenge that I decided I needed to put into my life because if I’m not intentional about arting sometimes, I won’t actively engage in making it.

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The idea was spawned last September when I challenged myself to create every day for the month of September. It was hash-tagged #MyCreativeSeptember and was a complete success in allowing my inner child to not only play every day, but trust me that I’d take care of her play needs. It was a big deal.

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And during and after the challenge, other people asked that we create a hashtag that would carry on. And so #OurCreativeSelves was created. I am blessed and blown away by all the sweet and talented people who wanted to join in on these endeavors alongside of me. Because truth is, you are never ever alone. There is someone else close by or far away who needs the same stuff you do. Creativity, inspiration, encouragement, and community. And that’s what life is all about to me.

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So please join in for a day or a week if you are intrigued. You only need to post a picture of your art/craft/creative endeavor on Instagram or Facebook and hashtag it with #OurCreativeMay and you will be instantly connected with some lovely swell people. Tag me and you’ll get my attention quicker too. 26 more days to go in May. Pushing beyond my comfort zone just a little is good for my soul.

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