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The Artist I Am

I Carry the Shame

Posted by on Sep 21, 2020 in Creative Soul Living, poetry, Self-Discovery, writing | 4 comments

I Carry the Shame

I carry the shame Of the impoverished upbringings of my parents. Abuse and neglect. I can’t wear stained or torn of illfitting clothes when I leave the house. We don’t do that. I carry the shame  Of the unwanted weight on my body. Not maintaining my appeal for men and equally, for caring what anyone thinks of me, especially men. I carry the shame  Of not fixing my anxiety Of passing it on to my child Of not being enough. I carry the shame  Of staying stuck Of not rising, using my talents for more. Of not burning brightly like they...

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Pandemics Happen and then Everything Goes to CBD Oil

Posted by on Sep 11, 2020 in Ahas, Creative Soul Living, Self-Discovery, Wisdom Lessons | 0 comments

Pandemics Happen and then Everything Goes to CBD Oil

In the beginning of the year, I was doing pretty great. I was exercising regularly, losing my Christmas weight gain, writing an essay that I knew would be published, and had some routine going. And then the Pandemic happened. I didn’t implode immediately but the decline of my “self” life was inevitable. I’ve spent a lifetime giving upon myself. It’s what I grew up with. I’m kinda not worth the effort. I then revert to taking care of others mode. It’s a pattern especially in Summer time. It’s easier to focus...

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September Has Arrived

Posted by on Sep 2, 2020 in Creative Soul Living, Keeping House and Mind Aligned | 0 comments

September Has Arrived

September has arrived. The crickets forewarned me. The temperature dropped a delightful 15 degrees Fahrenheit although the humidity has kept its nasty reign on out region. I look forward to these things. To the schedule, rhythm, and routine of the school work week so I may advance with my own progress. To the planning, implementing, and shutting down of the garden workload. To bringing down the fuzzy rug and turning on the fireplace because it’s cold outside. To wearing clothing that covers the back of my thighs. To firepits in the...

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What Would Make My Life a “Success”

Posted by on Aug 26, 2020 in Creative Soul Living, Homebody, Midlife Motherhood, Wisdom Lessons | 0 comments

What Would Make My Life a “Success”

What do you do? The answer to this question implies your worth and productivity to the world. This question is why you stopped going to events where there might be strangers. Because you aren’t certain that there’s an answer you can provide that will bring satisfaction to you and them. But what if we stopped valuing and judging ourselves on what we do? Gasp. What if we valued ourselves and our presence in this world and instead focused on what a successful life looked like to us not others? What would that look like? To spend...

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Puzzling Out My Realizations

Posted by on Aug 21, 2020 in Ahas, Creative Soul Living, Wisdom Lessons | 0 comments

Puzzling Out My Realizations

The weather has broken finally. Usually it’s hotter than heck around this time in August. I am not complaining. In the Spring I was taking daily walks and I have been able to return to these. Like a moving prayer, I feel all sorts of hopes and connections bubble to the surface as I walk. Today, I put my realizations together. I was truly at my best this Spring when I was walking and writing bis juicy essays. I felt great. And I didn’t have time to fuss about this weight gain that has happened to many of us. I realized that all...

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Know That You Are Necessary

Posted by on Aug 17, 2020 in Creative Soul Living, Daily Shalagh | 0 comments

Know That You Are Necessary

One can’t create the life one wants without envisioning its form first. But knowing that you are necessary to this world, that your gifts, stories, and laughter are necessary, the journey can not even begin without knowing these absolutes. I named the life that i want to live ‘Creative Soul Living’. Yet l often forget that l even dreamed that commitment. The mirrors of self-worth l was missing in my childhood often prevent me from seeing my worth to the world today. My fight is often simply to remember. And If you enjoyed...

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Summer Simmers Along Slowly

Posted by on Aug 12, 2020 in Creative Soul Living, Daily Shalagh, Eastern Shore Experiences, Homebody | 0 comments

Summer Simmers Along Slowly

Summer simmers along slowly. My daughter’s mood is much improved since our trip to RI. This sweet little thank you note she gave me while we were there says it all. She and her new little cat Sassy get each other wound up and scream and run through the house. The purple stitches will be removed tomorrow from her eye removal two weeks ago. We have a kinda rhythm going. Sleep and eat and do as we need to. I’ve been planning meals to make it easier on me with Eamon making one per week. Eamon has had his band over to practice weekly....

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My 9 Year Blogaversary

Posted by on Aug 5, 2020 in Blogging Along, Creative Soul Living, Daily Shalagh | 0 comments

My 9 Year Blogaversary

My Blog at Shalavee.com, the home for my consistent creative writing outlet, turns 9 years old this month. She was born from a need to commit to my creative writing. She was an excuse to come out of my shell and show up online. And what I found out about myself through my honest words and connections with people in the world was that I had unlimited thoughts to convey and words to express them with. I have regularly owned my words and shared them out loud on my blog. My thoughts weren’t always greeted with kindness and I was so insecure...

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Absence Makes the Heart Grow Fonder

Posted by on Jul 29, 2020 in Daily Shalagh, Family, Midlife Motherhood, Pretty Pictures | 0 comments

Absence Makes the Heart Grow Fonder

My sister lives in Rhode Island and purchased a house with extra rooms five years ago with the intention of having us come visit. But until this year, we hadn’t. My daughter was too small and then there were Summer camps. We didn’t have the right vehicle and then she just came and visit us instead. But we just returned from our Summer vacation to RI. All my daughter wanted to do was swim in the pool. I ended up spending all my time with her there. And we ate out a lot. I just needed to decide what I wanted to eat. So not a lot of...

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Finished My 100 Day Project for 2020 : collages 76 through 100

Posted by on Jul 17, 2020 in Creative Projects, Creative Soul Living, Pretty Pictures | 1 comment

Finished My 100 Day Project for 2020 : collages 76 through 100

Well I’ve done it again. I’ve finished the 100 Day Project for the third year in a row. Each and every lovin’ day since Mid-March, I’ve shown up in my craftroom and created one tiny collage on a 2 x 4 card. Day 76 Day 77 Day 78 Day 79 Day 80 Day 81 Day 82 Day 83 Days 84 and 85 Day 86 Day 87 Day 88 Day 89 Day 90 Day 91 Day 92 Day 93 Day 94 Day 95 Days 96 and 97 Day 98 Day 99 Day 100 I believe that showing up for yourself creatively is so important for developing self-esteem and a healthy relationship with yourself. It...

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