I Have To Diddle With Her Diddle

(Be forewarned, there’s a doctor visit with a slightly graphic female parts description coming up .)

At Fiona’s recent Doctor’s office check-up, the doctor’s last bodily inventory check was her diddle, or as I call it, her twinkle. And then he checked it again. And he explains to me that her inner lips around her urethra had partially joined back together. Meaning that the smaller exit area for her pee can be of concern for future cause for infection. And of course I’m knowing, this was all my fault and here’s why.

First everything that befalls our children is somehow our fault. And this I knew had happened because I hadn’t been diligent enough in cleaning her diddle. Surely better wiping would have prevented this. He said it was a common problem. This is my excuse.

Fiona and her broom on

While I changed her diaper when she was a tiny baby, I would have visions I couldn’t unsee. Adults wielding incredible power and her meekness. She was so tiny and vulnerable it was painful to think about all the wee people across the globe experiencing atrocities I never wanted to know about. Female circumcisions and rapes and monstrous crimes against their little persons and bodies. Something in my Mom mind just kept recognizing the vulnerability of this baby.

When my son was a baby, I had read up on keeping him clean and from what I read, uric acid is a sterile acid and doesn’t cause infection. I’d wipe really well after she pooped but her body would also keep the poop from going where it shouldn’t. I’d check to make sure but wouldn’t work too hard at cleaning it out. I always put soap in the tub and give her a good swipe through her butt area when I gave her a bath. All good then. Fiona and Grammy's garden statues on

The doctor did not disagree or admonish me for any of this. He has prescribed me some estrogen cream to apply daily to her inner labia to help the skin thin and separate. And there I am doing the thing that I’d tried to avoid, diddling with her diddle. She doesn’t like it. She says “Ow” when you go to apply the cream. Because I think it’s instinctual for children to know what’s private on their body as it is to want to poop in private. I go back in a week to find out if were good to go. If my intrusive diddling can end.

1 yr old Fiona and Mr Crackers in the window on

I’m doing what the doctor told me. I’ve got my game face and all business-mode down but I’d like to stop now. I know that I’ll have to teach my daughter how to wipe herself when we actually get to the potty training. It’s a fine balance between showing her how to take care of her body, taking care of her body, and going too far in taking care of her body. To teach her to respect her body and say no to bad touch when I am walking a fine line in the touching department. Such is the mortar of parenthood’s bricks.

Girls are higher maintenance folks.

Anything else you need to warn me about in your experience?

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4 Responses to “I Have To Diddle With Her Diddle”

  1. adamjasonp says:

    Sometimes medical issues just appear, and you have to deal with them… until she can manage herself.

    “Girls are higher maintenance, folks.”

    I don’t disagree.

    • Shalagh says:

      It’s that whole you are not a doctor so you have no reference thing Adam. Plus that feeling like you are responsible some how for every little thing that happens to them. Oh and the taking care of it themselves thing? I know a dentist who still brushes his kids teeth and one of them is over ten. Ha! He knows how much it’ll cost if he doesn’t.
      Thanks for your kindness!

  2. Melissa says:

    These things happen it is not your fault. No mom gets in there and separates everything with a diaper change. One thing about girls is when they are older they need long conversations, boys- a shrug a hug and they are pretty good to go. Boys talk long with their fathers. You are a great conversationalist so no worries. This is a big one, girls do not appreciate orders. Try to give them choices which are reasonable . I like choices because one day they will have to make their own- Sophie makes choices everyday, its easy for her. Some of her friends really struggle with this. Always looking to someone else asking what should I do? This is avoidable, really.

    • Shalagh says:

      You know Melissa, every twitch, every itch, every wiggly esteem moment becomes a shadow of your parenting. It’s just inevitable. Yes to them making choices for and by themselves. Truly I believe in not stealing their lives away from them. So as this one gets bigger, I’ll watch the best I can, guide, wince, and learn. Thanks for letting me know that your girl was a little high emotionally high maintenance too.

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