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Just Because You’re Afraid Doesn’t Mean You’re Not Brave

Posted by on Apr 26, 2017 in Ahas, Daily Shalagh, Gathering My Lessons | 2 comments

Just Because You’re Afraid Doesn’t Mean You’re Not Brave

Fiona was inconsolable with her self-pity after her recent round of shots. I thought she needed them for Pre-K but it seems we got them a year earlier than necessary. They’re done now. And those band-aids that I couldn’t remove from her thighs for days were proof that she wasn’t brave. Don’t even suggest it to her because she’ll begin to cry and tell you she wasn’t. Still isn’t. In preparation for the day at the doctor’s office, I had read her a few books on going to the doctor’s and she...

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A Real Day

Posted by on Apr 21, 2017 in Ahas, Daily Shalagh, Gathering My Lessons | 2 comments

A Real Day

I lived another real day. Nothing “exciting” like a grocery store run. Just waiting on a service man, cleaning up a pee puddle or two from a stubborn 4-year-old daughter. Stasis. Stillness. Stupid brain. Wishing I’d grabbed those few valuable moments of peace when she was sulking and half-naked in her room upstairs. But instead, I just wasted a half hour looking for that perfect rug online again. The waiting has gotten me so much more than I’d credit it for. The waiting has made me catch up and slow down with my real purpose....

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Let Me Take You to Frumpytown

Posted by on Apr 19, 2017 in Ahas, Daily Shalagh, Gathering My Lessons | 0 comments

Let Me Take You to Frumpytown

Cold and rainy, now snowy day. I just wanted to put on my old ugly fleece coat. The one I was surprised to find in the closet since it was from when I was pregnant, has a busted belt loop, and possibly a paint splotch on it. But it’s like wearing a blanket on a wet cold dreary day even if it’s a definite decision to be frumpy. I made the opposite decision yesterday when I decided to not go out looking and feeling frump-a-liscious. I heated up the curling iron and put on some make-up darn it. It’s not about what I think...

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Soul Goals

Posted by on Apr 17, 2017 in Ahas, Daily Shalagh, Gathering My Lessons | 2 comments

Soul Goals

I recently arranged and hosted a Mastermind Meet-up with a group of women who I admire and respect. The purpose of this meeting was to gather to inspire and enlighten each other. And beyond talk of random politics and religion, because how cool is it that we women can do that without conflict, we spoke of what our goals for ourselves may be. Well, I threw mine down on the table and offered everyone an opportunity to consider what their soul goals may be. My friend and women’s intuitive coach Samantha Wheatley uses this phrase soul goal...

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Universal Message

Posted by on Apr 14, 2017 in Ahas, Daily Shalagh, Gathering My Lessons | 1 comment

Universal Message

The universe gave me a message this week that I mattered. Not intimidating like God speaking to me, but just a general nudge from my more intimate universe that I am rocking my life in good ways. We matter. You’ve heard this and blown this off a million times. But those who grab it and put it inside themselves, those people are the one who feel entitled to ask for the changes the world needs to see. It’s a matter of allowing, coercing, and getting ourselves to see how we matter and agree with the rest of the world on this matter...

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The Soul Buffer Zone

Posted by on Apr 12, 2017 in Ahas, Daily Shalagh, Gathering My Lessons | 4 comments

The Soul Buffer Zone

I’ve been thinking a lot recently about what it would be like to have a “soul buffer zone”. Having been raised codependent and since having children, my boundaries are a little wiggly. And the thought of having space around me that I keep myself safe within is really appealing to me. In fact it’s downright necessary if I’m ever going to make my life the zen experience I long for. The idea is that there’s a mental space between you and the outer world. And you intentionally maintain that by not letting people make...

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Craving the Shift

Posted by on Apr 10, 2017 in Ahas, Gathering My Lessons | 1 comment

Craving the Shift

Oh how I crave the shift. I want to see my world as all possibilities, untangled with preconceived can’ts. I want to see my children as cherubs and my career as chosen, doable, and successful. To come home to my body and my house and see them for the fabulousness they contain. And each day passes by me as I await the shift. From the wickedly talented recently deceased (ovarian cancer at my age) memoirist and author Amy Krause Rosenthal via her book Encyclopedia of an Ordinary Life, “RETURNING TO LIFE AFTER BEING DEAD When I am...

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The Longing For Belonging

Posted by on Apr 3, 2017 in Ahas, Daily Shalagh, Gathering My Lessons | 0 comments

The Longing For Belonging

In response to my piece Know Ledge, about knowing what we need to know at all times, my friend asked, “Why do we feel so alone?” . And I knew exactly what she meant. I spent so very many years feeling grief over the loneliness I felt in my bones. And this is what I said to my friend, “That is the longing for belonging”. Deeper down, we truly wish to belong to ourselves. There is an immense difference between fitting in and belonging. I discovered this concept in Brene Brown’s book Daring Greatly and it made such sense out of so many...

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Anxieties and Allergies : You Probably Have Them Too

Posted by on Mar 31, 2017 in Ahas, Daily Shalagh, Gathering My Lessons | 2 comments

Anxieties and Allergies : You Probably Have Them Too

There are two things I’m certain the majority of the population is afflicted with and yet are in complete denial about. Anxieties and allergies. (Well there’s one more but I’m saving that for next week.} These two had me down and out both mentally and physically for many years with no help to ease the symptoms because I completely ignored them. You can’t get help for something your either sure you don’t have or haven’t been diagnosed with. In the case of my allergies, it took chronic sinus infections and me...

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Opinions, Entitlement, and the Value of Your Voice

Posted by on Mar 29, 2017 in Ahas, Daily Shalagh, Gathering My Lessons, Raising Fair Fiona, The Good Mother, Used To Be | 0 comments

Opinions, Entitlement, and the Value of Your Voice

Opinions are like noses, we all have them. But are we entitled and allowed to have them? If I find it hard to find a voice to express them, I may not feel I’m allowed to have an opinion in the first place. As a woman, it can prove tough not to judge myself for what I have to say as necessary or valid as I’m considering actually saying it. Then I may choose to keep quiet. I have my own internal bouncer at the thought door checking the validity, wittiness, or profundity of my outgoing thoughts and opinions. And often, they’re...

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