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How Instagram Helped Cure Me of Anxiety

Posted by on Aug 17, 2018 in Ahas, Daily Shalagh, Friendship, Gathering My Lessons, Self-Discovery | 0 comments

How Instagram Helped Cure Me of Anxiety

I love to connect with like-minded creative women on Instagram. This format of Social media (also known as a platform) became my preferred online social interaction as I was trying to build an audience for my blog. I very hesitantly joined communities and challenges and slowly started to poke my head out of my fear shell. And I credit Instagram and creativity for curing me of my anxieties. I’d never experienced community and was completely unsure of what it meant and how I was supposed to do it. I just knew that being witnessed by these...

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Choose to Not Choose is Still a Choice

Posted by on Aug 15, 2018 in Ahas, Daily Shalagh, Friendship | 2 comments

Choose to Not Choose is Still a Choice

She rather vehemently insisted that there are no choices. Thank you very little, she understands the concept of “everything is a choice”, just not for her. She’s resigned to that comfortable hell of nothing changes because perhaps it is too overwhelming to consider those other choices. To allow for change would be to admit that had always been a choice perhaps? The march of the musts is way more familiar. And maybe familiar trumps joy? At some cellular level, joy is just another hell. It is painfully unfamiliar. Why want something that...

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Looking For Ease is Hard

Posted by on Aug 13, 2018 in Ahas, Daily Shalagh, Gathering My Lessons | 2 comments

Looking For Ease is Hard

I am never sure what easy looks like but I know I haven’ t lived it yet. Why have I made life so hard? Because it’s what I knew. When things were hard, there was pain and somehow pain substantiates life. But recently, as I’ve focused on just being here now and doing what I need to do to get done, I’ve found ease and it’s surprisingly easy. I have set myself to goals recently that were progressive. Where the hard work I was avoiding, I’m doing. And it took me by surprise that when I did what I truly knew...

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March of the Musts

Posted by on Aug 10, 2018 in Ahas, Daily Shalagh, Gathering My Lessons, Self-Discovery | 0 comments

March of the Musts

From a very small age, we get the notion that things need to be done a certain way, or else. We make up our own logic and rules about the way we need to do our lives with this impending threat looming that if we don’t do it that way, there’ll be consequences. I had some ritual at age 5 where I had to pull up my underwear and jump from the chair to the bed or I wouldn’t be safe from the creatures under my bed. And I am watching me daughter do the same sort of “must be dones” too. I think we forget the original...

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I Want to Honor Myself

Posted by on Aug 3, 2018 in Ahas, Daily Shalagh, Gathering My Lessons, Self-Discovery | 0 comments

I Want to Honor Myself

The word honor suddenly asked to be thought of. What does it mean to me I wondered, to honor myself, my life. To treat myself with reverence and respect unlike my usual lack of respect and general pushing to do. What if I allowed myself to respect and revere and see myself and what I am here to do daily? How would that effect my outlook, my daily doing? I often envy others their perspective. They can see their lives and what they are here for and how beautiful their day is. They capture it in their art and their social media and their words....

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Don’t Let the Tech Be Your Downfall

Posted by on Jul 30, 2018 in Ahas, Daily Shalagh, Random | 1 comment

Don’t Let the Tech Be Your Downfall

Back in May, I wrote piece bemoaning my forced march to get used to new tech and a new car. You can read that little rant here. My new car definitely still has its drawbacks like the fact that it looks like every other car so that I’ve actually approached other cars thinking they were mine and even opened a door! But it’s clean and has great pick up for a four-cylinder. The new Android Samsung phone is still being paid for and I’m getting used to it. The clear case I bought is turning yellow on the edges probably from skin...

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What if It Was a Given

Posted by on Jul 27, 2018 in Ahas, Daily Shalagh, Gathering My Lessons | 4 comments

What if It Was a Given

____Enjoy this repost from October 1st, 2016 which I just happened to reread and thought it seemed a nice thought to remind myself of today. What you need to happen will.________ I was speaking to a very favorite Lady friend of mine about all the things I’m paralyzed to do. Certain I can’t do them for lack of time or technological knowledge, I put off even trying these things while envying everyone else who seems to be able to just trudge onward and get them done. She said she’d heard someone say, “What if you were...

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Action Brings Courage

Posted by on Jul 23, 2018 in Ahas, Daily Shalagh, Self-Discovery | 1 comment

Action Brings Courage

In a recent perusal of my favorite inspirational bloggers and speakers,I rediscovered and owned that my chosen method to accommodate my fears is to procrastinate. Ah yes. However,when I do this, I end up feeling ashamed that I am not getting on with making my purpose a reality and a shame storm repeats itself. More reading brought me this simple nugget of wisdom: Action brings Courage.  Take any action towards the perceived goal and suddenly, it all feels better. The antidote to hopelessness and unworthiness is action. It immediately resets...

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Forgiving the Stuck

Posted by on Jul 18, 2018 in Ahas, Daily Shalagh, Gathering My Lessons, Self-Discovery | 2 comments

Forgiving the Stuck

Ah the stuck. It smells of mildew and shame. It’s the place that you dread being when things need to happen. It’s the place you don’t want to admit to being, especially when everybody knows you just need to do “this” and “that” and it will all be done. Over it. Moving on. But here you are, still stuck, feeling bad, and generally sad. Oh I know I look super busy and productive to you making all these things happen and those things shiny and feeding my kids. But honestly, there’s always that thing that you can’t...

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Shifting from Should to Could

Posted by on Jul 16, 2018 in Ahas, Daily Shalagh, Gathering My Lessons, Self-Discovery | 2 comments

Shifting from Should to Could

The shame of not doing what I should have done is sometimes unbearable. I really do mean well and know better, yet I keep hearing myself berate me for not having already done that and gone there. I am a very smart woman, I should know better, do better. And all that serves to do is make me not want to do it even more. If I’ve made it a should, I’ve cursed the possibility of having it happen. Or I hold an invisible knife to my throat for so many tasks that would make me a better person. This idea of the difference between Should and Could was...

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