Gathering My Lessons
I am constantly learning from my life. Someone special to me said that I could glean a lesson even from a recipe.
Which is what I did in my post, When The Recipes Must Go.
I call them Ahas. I can also stand on a Soapbox every once in a while.
And I learn some pretty big stuff from some little people in my life. The good and the bad and
the happy and the sad. My friendships are very important to me. The past holds some wisdom yet to be learned.
And my husband’s lessons are occasionally shared by his voice here. I may repeat myself, but guaranteed,
I’ll get you to think about life just a little differently.
IG Inspiration
Recently, every time I ask Eamon what he’s sniggering at on his phone, he says “Memes”, word pictures meant to simplify a concept or convey a joke or a truth. I role my eyes at him. But you know these quotes below from Instagram have rocked my “Aha” in just the right way. They may give you one too. View this post on Instagram How often do you overthink things? Feel overwhelmed by how complex things seem? I was reminded of this recently when I tried to work something out intellectually. Tried to make sure I...
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