Gathering My Lessons
I am constantly learning from my life. Someone special to me said that I could glean a lesson even from a recipe.
Which is what I did in my post, When The Recipes Must Go.
I call them Ahas. I can also stand on a Soapbox every once in a while.
And I learn some pretty big stuff from some little people in my life. The good and the bad and
the happy and the sad. My friendships are very important to me. The past holds some wisdom yet to be learned.
And my husband’s lessons are occasionally shared by his voice here. I may repeat myself, but guaranteed,
I’ll get you to think about life just a little differently.
We are all Fear Puppets, it’s Not Personal
I caught myself again being frustrated at someone for their fear. When people are afraid, which seems a constant mode these days, they make choices to protect themselves or avoid stuff that makes them feel wiggy. And this really isn’t about you. But it certainly feels like it sometimes…most of the time. Taking it personally seems to be automatic for us. You didn’t say hi to me when we passed each other on the street so immediately I think that must mean you don’t like me. But you may not want to be seen with that extra...
read moreTen Things about this Pandemic that Bother Me Most
I am sure we all have had enough of certain aspects of this Pandemic. I decided to list mine. And no, the masks didn’t make it to the list because I understand their necessity. Our mandatory mistrust of one another in order to be safe is so bothersome to me ie. I trust and someone dies. No one wants to kill their mother after all. Despite all the information posted everywhere, most people have no understanding of this virus’ mode of transmission (via spittle into the face), contagion period (less than a week before symptoms and...
read moreEnrolled and Sharing the Creative Doer Course from Anna Lovind
I am currently enrolled in the Creative Doer course constructed by Anna Lovind to find clarity on the creative project we have been dreaming of doing and the freedom, clarity, and inspiration to proceed. I knew this would be what I needed because her Creative Doer book was one of the most amazing reads, outside of Big Magic, I’ve ever read on the subject of Creativity. Anna’s been with me for over five years supporting me in my creativity journey. In the beginning of my creative journey, I was desperate for wisdom and a plan. I...
read moreRealizations During This Un-busy Season
Unattached to our auto-busyness, I think we’re realizing that we have a lot more power to choose our lives than we formerly thought. We can live our best lives proactively, thoughtfully, and consciously. You’d think we’d be dancing in the streets for realizing this freedom, but we are all such control freaks that freedom’s a bit of a scary concept. Here’s what I’ve noticed shifting or not in me recently. No matter how much time I have, I never seem to have enough to read. Still. If I put an activity on a...
read moreGrow Through What You Go Through
Grow through what you go through. The best way out is always though. For me, the largest shift happened not because I chose for it to happen But because I stopped stopping it from happening. My story two years ago, The Fear shield comes up. It disallows all the work I’ve done prior to matter. Infantalizing me, ignoring all my efforts, it insists it needs to keep me safe in its way. But I’ve done all of this work i say. I’ve studied and thought and grieved to get here. Let me pass. But there was always an impasse. Until l...
read moreA Sunday Catch-Up about Me
I’ve found myself a little quieter recently. Not just wanting to write for writing’s sake but to have something to say when I do. Something meaningful to me and to you. It’s not as if I haven’t ceased being busy. The kids are still home even if it has just turned Summer. At least I don’t need to nag my 7 year old to do her work and watch her cry. But there is still a heaviness as we manage their need for socializing. I’m slowly working my way through creatrix and mentor Anna Lovind’s Creative Doer...
read moreA Family Pandemic Status Update
So much has happened over the last three months. Frightened and confused into submission to stay safe and be good citizens, we found ways to entertain ourselves. We played Uno until Fiona wanted to cry every time she lost. We had Room day and a date night in the garage. We’ve had lovely walks in the woods. We ate meal after meal together. Fiona began playing the piano, climbing tress, and learned how to ride her bike. And like every other kid that had never been home schooled, she gave me grief every time she needed to do homework. We...
read moreStruggling With Priorities : Them or Me
The largest part of who I am is needing to have my kids feel safe. In the beginning of our coronacation, I have fussed and hovered like I did when we would take our littles on vacation and I would worry they wouldn’t sleep. I’d be the sleepless one while the kids would pass out happily. They have done well, broken down and cried on and at me. But their feelings have been honored and I feel successful that they feel safe. However, it is exhausting to care for people this hard. Especially dramatic redheaded daughters. Truth is, I can see how we...
read moreReached the Halfway Point on my #100DayProject 2020
Yes, I am 50 days into my one hundred days long art project akamy 100 day challenge aka 100 days of Shalagh. I am halfway through. Honestly, the habit is established in the first two weeks . After that it becomes a given. Up to that point, you may play mindgames with yourself about whether you will finish or not. Once you stop that and just show up unquestionably for a length of time, you become your own superstar. By the end of the project, no matter how many of your pieces you think suck, you can revel instead on how much you showed up for...
read moreInspired by Maria Shriver’s Sunday Newsletter
I love the inspiration of the online world. The ability to pick how and who you want to be stimulated, inspired, and changed by is under-celebrated. To have the choice to gravitate towards like minds and turn it back inwards when you’ve heard what you needed, that’s an amazing opportunity. I have been inspired by Maria Shriver’s Sunday newsletter during this lockdown period and yesterday’s edition had me thinking per usual. Maria was out walking with her friend Simon and someone she met posed the question, what three...
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