Gathering My Lessons
I am constantly learning from my life. Someone special to me said that I could glean a lesson even from a recipe.
Which is what I did in my post, When The Recipes Must Go.
I call them Ahas. I can also stand on a Soapbox every once in a while.
And I learn some pretty big stuff from some little people in my life. The good and the bad and
the happy and the sad. My friendships are very important to me. The past holds some wisdom yet to be learned.
And my husband’s lessons are occasionally shared by his voice here. I may repeat myself, but guaranteed,
I’ll get you to think about life just a little differently.
Do You Rage or Resign Yourself ?
Have you ever found yourself frustrated because you have a chore to do and you just don’t feel like doing it? It’s too hot to take the trash out. There’s dishes piled in the sink and it’s late. My feet are dirty and I’m too tired for a bath. There’s nothing to eat in the house but the thought of take out food turns your stomach? When things smack of effort, we can feel resentful, angry even. We don’t feel like it. But what we are also inadvertently saying is that we aren’t worth the effort. Life...
read moreI Should Love Myself
I wanted to title this, I Should Love Myself More. But I decided that loving myself at any level, much more to the more, was a necessary thing. I can say that I like myself. But I can not say I love myself today. I have said I love you recently to myself. But why did that disappear? Self-love is as necessary as breathing. And yet we aren’t taught how to do this very well. We are taught how to hold ourselves to impossible standards and berate ourselves perpetually sure we don’t meet these standards. But the importance of self-love...
read morePermission to Be Me
It is truly hard to claim yourself. What do you like and who do you believe yourself to be are two of an intricate network of questions for which the answers represent you. Except we are so inundated with facts on who we are supposed to be a that by the time we are old enough to have the power to define ourselves, we’ve all but forgotten who we are. “You can be anything you want to be” is such a ridiculous statement, we think. I’m supposed to be all these other things. I keep thinking that I need focus on who I see myself as. To...
read moreWho Do You I Think I Am Vs. Who Do I Believe Myself to Be
Why is there a presumed challenge in the question, “who do you think you are”? As if anyone is ever entitled to question your opinion of yourself other than you. Perhaps only people who don’t know who they are ask this question in a way that suggests you are less. But I am thinking more and more this month about who I believe myself to be. My definition in me which leads to who I believe myself to be. And it perpetually occurs to me that who I think I am is a lot less than who you think I am. And that it may be possible to increase my...
read moreSumptuous Summer Time
I never sleep in. Until Summer. This Sunday morning, I was so languorous in bed, my ear hurt from laying on it. And after I rose and descended the stairs for my first cup of coffee, there were no children demanding things of me. Luxurious sumptuous Summer Time. Remembering my creative soul life. I made a loving breakfast of last chance potatoes, mushrooms, eggs, and thyme from my porch garden. And now I sit listening to the Sleepy Hollow radio program on WXPN with my daughter arting on the floor with her markers coloring seascapes. My hand...
read moreFalling Away
I am always battling with who I think I am. I strip off parts and then I forget parts. Bits of me fall away from me like sand and I begin to disappear in the wind. It’s as if I have to remind myself of who I am. Again and again and again. I can hear the “can” coming in and out. I can hear “my life is good” going in and out. It is these decisions about my now and future life that shade my satisfaction of my now. And there is nothing else more important besides my now. Ever. And If you enjoyed what you read,...
read moreCourting Myself and Remembering My Parts
Yesterday and Today, I did what I said I was going to do. I attended three classes so far in an effort to take all of the classes I can in a week. This is part of a bigger plan to turn back the clock to the point before I felt fat and old and scared. My coping mechanisms to drink more wine isn’t working. And essentially, my son told me calling myself old was getting old. As I was in the exrcise class feeling my knees scream doing squats, I remembered that I had made a declaration some months ago before school let out. My intention was...
read moreA Bump in My Summer Road
I need to share a little bump in my road that happened at the end of the school year that I had to recover from. On top of having all the end of year concerts and recitals and parties, a mix-up at the pharmacy led to an unintentional cold turkey off of my new anxiety meds. This was something my doctor said Do Not Do. When I became weepy and had a constant stomach ache, I knew something was wrong. I’d been taking the wrong prescription and since I never have my contacts in yet when I take my medicines, it was a while before it got...
read moreMy Right Now and the Beginning of Summer
It’s hot outside. And humid. I just don’t feel like sitting inside all day long. But it’s sunny out and the garden is looking spiffier than it has in a very long time. Oh, it’s also Father’s Day which is falling on a Sunday after a lot of ballet recital stuff and a church band performance for the son. And my sister’s visiting. I am trying to play catch up with the chores and make food and collages for my 100 day project and write a blog post and … Our vacation is planned for this week and somehow, I feel...
read moreEvolution Revolution : Using Our Brains Differently
Whether you know it or not, there’s an evolution revolution currently occurring. We are being asked to raise our consciousnesses and consider how we treat ourselves. We can move from reactive living to proactive living if we use our brains differently. All the buzz about mindfulness isn’t bunk and here’s why. We have two different parts of our brains that we use. There’s the back brain and the front brain. The back brain is the primitive brain that works on autopilot and is responsible for fear. It says it’s...
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