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Thoughts on Aging and Thankfulness

As I’m sitting about digesting this week, I’ve had a few thoughts and I thought to share them with you. Like, the fun part about getting older is that you begin to realize what makes you happy and what doesn’t. This corresponds with another realization that you are truly the primary person who you owe happiness to. And if you respect this and follow your heart, you can turn your whole life upside down.

I’ve discovered that hosting and serving others in a party or dinner sense is what I love to do and who I love to be while doing it. Such a sense of peace when I can set a tone and relax into the role of hostess. Thanksgiving this year was wonderful.

I’ve discovered that writing, conversing with, and supporting others is who I am and love myself while I’m doing it. I am hosting an Instagram Challenge currently and am loving it profoundly.Thoughts on Aging and Thankfulness on Shalavee.com

I’ve discovered that saying yes to anti-anxiety meds was one of the best choices outside of picking Mark to be my kids’ father. I enjoy my life so tremendously being their mother and knowing that I will stop the cycle of modeling anxious living.

However, I’ve yet to discover how to maintain bodily neutrality. Post Thanksgiving negative body thoughts want to creep over into the not so nice tone of voice. Instead, I am just going to schedule some exercise into my life and start keeping track of what goes in my face.

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Why Does My Self-Interest Waver?

I am wondering what my deal is when it comes to my wavering self-interest. I understand that I prioritize my children and my family above myself. I understand that everything I may do that is a creative endeavor is a risk of showing my authentic self and getting whooped. Fear does a lot of dances around not showing up for yourself. And my bad opinion of egomania is well-established and substantiated which makes me not want to be that way.

Except, I’m a writer for goodness sake. I have to find what I think somewhat interesting to begin writing. And usually I find my way through to another set of thoughts I’m surprised by. But why don’t I find what I think interesting enough to promote, to delve into more deeply and publish? It’s like I’m two different people. The mild-mannered writer by night and then the American housewife by day. Hmmmmm…Why Does My Self-Interest Waver? on Shalavee.com

I have the potential to write really interesting pieces, in fact whenever I read my work I’m always surprised at how well spoken I am. But a general compulsion to have my thoughts on certain subjects known on a broader band, I’ve got nothing. As if I just turn a knob off for my existence. I don’t exist for myself, I exist for everyone and everywhere else.

I bring these thoughts to my therapist and to you. You are bearing witness to my process. I am inviting you here within my head in case you too have problems in the places I do. And I greatly appreciate your presence. But know this, I will break through. I always do.

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And, as always, Thanks to you for your visit.

51% Belief Will Make it Happen

You will not do what you do not believe you can do. You can hope and wish for change but the spark for creating the change lies in your heart. What you believe is possible. What you believe isn’t won’t happen.

You need a 51% belief factor to realize your dream. A knowledge of the future that you can will it so, that the Universe is rooting for you to do this.

Otherwise, your lack of belief will only serve to sabotage you. If you find yourself saying “see, I knew it wouldn’t work out” remember this, you believed it into being thus. We are all wicked manifesters.

We can rise from the ashes if we only have 51% faith in our futures. We can build a life and family and community based on our need for these things. And we can topple our lives, stop even our own hearts, if we believe that is what will happen as well.

Staying on the reaction treadmill to life, surviving instead of thriving, those are choices you may have made. But the divine energy of the world would love to hand you so much more!

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And, as always, Thanks to you for your visit.

KIndness

Why is it we think that we assume other people will suck? That they’ll be mean to us if we ask them for a hand or a hot shot. Why are we so surprised when we are rewarded with humanity.

I have recently noticed that when I present myself to the world with a glad and kind heart, a smile and a wave, and a little more confidence than I used to have, I am rewarded with the same. In fact, my kindness expands as I give it out. I touch them with the flame and they light up.

Kindness is the gift that keeps on giving. It costs nothing yet it is so valuable as it spreads exponentially expanding in heart after heart. 

The final frontier for many of us is practicing kindness with ourselves. To be as gentle and compassionate as we would with an animal, with ourselves. That kindness is what the world needs most of all.

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And, as always, Thanks to you for your visit.

My Fear Box Hides My Capabilities

Somehow I’ve decided that there is a box I am supposed to stay within. That to venture from the box is certain death. I somehow always know that I am not allowed to imagine myself anywhere else but in the Fear Box. I am denied access to the world of possibilities outside.

But I also know that the key to freedom is in having self-esteem enough to fill my balloon and sail over the walls of the box and out into the world. Feeling capable is the updraft. Capability however is stolen by low self-esteem. Negative judgmental thoughts are the pin that pops the balloon and keeps me in the box.

I have honored my creativity over and over yet I wouldn’t call myself an artist. I have written over 1000 blog posts and yet wouldn’t say I’m a “successful” writer. Yet I have successfully pulled off many special events and parties, decorated Christmas trees, and birthed and raised two beautiful children. I am a highly capable person who is unaware of her capabilities. Because Fear claims that knowing these capabilities would be unsafe.

Staying small and staying safe would be my Fear’s dream vacation. But to my intellect and my inner artist, this is soul death. Once you see that you are smarter than your fear, grateful for it having kept you safe of course, but done kowtowing to it’s every twitch, you end up in charge of your future. A bridge to a new place.

I Can is about to fuel the rest of my life. And I will work harder and be more forgiving than I have ever been towards myself if I can taste the freedom of I Can.

And If you enjoyed what you read, subscribe, via the subscription box in the sidebar, to my thrice weekly posts via your emailbox. And visit me on Instagram to see my daily pictures, friend me or like my page on Facebook. Or come find me on Twitter or Pinterest too. I am always practicing Intentional Intouchness so chat at me please. I live for conversations.

And, as always, Thanks to you for your visit.

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