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A Sunday Catch-Up about Me

I’ve found myself a little quieter recently. Not just wanting to write for writing’s sake but to have something to say when I do. Something meaningful to me and to you. It’s not as if I haven’t ceased being busy. The kids are still home even if it has just turned Summer. At least I don’t need to nag my 7 year old to do her work and watch her cry. But there is still a heaviness as we manage their need for socializing.

I’m slowly working my way through creatrix and mentor Anna Lovind’s Creative Doer course, finding an understanding of what my inner productive creative needs to do to move onward. It seems I can tread water forever but I like having projects. So it’s time for me to self-lead myself to the next one.

A Sunday Catch-Up about Me

And what I found as I am listening to the lessons and and the meditations is that my urge is to create a place and a feeling of welcoming for people who need to be heard, to feel safe, and to decide to take their power back and make a life change. I want to create space for people to feel safe and to listen.

There are many technological advances that have opened up the communications for us during this lockdown. I want to explore what I would feel most comfortable with if I were searching for community. I am listening and looking for signs of my next step.

Meanwhile, I have also worked on creating connections with other bloggers and writers and there’ll be another essay published on Julia Barnicle’s sight soom. I’ll let you know when I know.

And I have just passed my 75th day of my 100 Day Project. So that’s a thing I need to share too. Talk at you soon!

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And, as always, Thanks to you for your visit.

A Family Pandemic Status Update

So much has happened over the last three months. Frightened and confused into submission to stay safe and be good citizens, we found ways to entertain ourselves. We played Uno until Fiona wanted to cry every time she lost. We had Room day and a date night in the garage. We’ve had lovely walks in the woods. We ate meal after meal together.

A Family Pandemic Status Update on Shalavee.com

 

Fiona began playing the piano, climbing tress, and learned how to ride her bike. And like every other kid that had never been home schooled, she gave me grief every time she needed to do homework. We adopted a new cat from the woods to be Fiona’s special friend. We named her Sass.

A Family Pandemic Status Update on Shalavee.com

A Family Pandemic Status Update on Shalavee.com

Eamon found new creative ways to annoy us with his stubborn teenageness. Constant struggle over his obsession with his techno devices. Staying up late talking to his girlfriend. The boy is missing all of his musical outlets and his bored out of his gourd. Except for the one chance he had to play at the Farmer’s Market. He is composing music though. And may finish reading a book. They’re both learning sign language from a close friend.

A Family Pandemic Status Update on Shalavee.com

My husband Mark lost all of his work and applied and received for Federal aid for his business. And somehow was able to enjoy his time off from his constant overwhelm. He refers to it as his temporary retirement. He’s been busy gardening and working on our Studio/Garage space feverishly. He learned how to edit video for our fellowships sermons. And started back with bike riding and golf.

A Family Pandemic Status Update on Shalavee.com

A Family Pandemic Status Update on Shalavee.com

I tried to stay strong for my kids but went a little batty having no any alone time to myself. I only got out for walks and grocery shopping for a long time. I’ve been forced to quit my allergy shots. And of course, still sneezing and dripping since March. I’ve continuously created art daily for 66 days. And struggling with the blog’s revamp but am keeping up with my writing in bigger exciting ways. I continue to value creativity for it’s own sake. It substantiates me, lets me feel like I’m acquainting myself with parts of me I’ve yet to know. And that is a wonderful feeling.

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And, as always, Thanks to you for your visit.

Struggling With Priorities : Them or Me

The largest part of who I am is needing to have my kids feel safe. In the beginning of our coronacation, I have fussed and hovered like I did when we would take our littles on vacation and I would worry they wouldn’t sleep. I’d be the sleepless one while the kids would pass out happily. They have done well, broken down and cried on and at me. But their feelings have been honored and I feel successful that they feel safe. However, it is exhausting to care for people this hard. Especially dramatic redheaded daughters.

Truth is, I can see how we Moms have a perfect excuse to not pursue our own personal creative goals. I have long struggled with what I “really want to do”. Even as it seems I’m doing “it”, I’m not feeling like I am. I realize it’s all about considering myself as not enough. Not enough of a good parent or a committed creative. So many ways I can look right at my life and deem it a failure.

I found this poem that I wrote a while back and I really think it sums up the inner battle I have with my expectations to succeed and what is enough.

 

I chatter at it and

Batter at it and

still it is not fixed.

The ages old self-diatribe

I am not enough, I am not enough

 

I tell everyone, I’m OK, I’m fine

But in my mind there’s a line

And I’m on the wrong side.

 

The impossibility of moving on

Tethered to a ghost.

I trust no one, even myself

And so I remain lost

 

I crave the ease

The easy squeeze

that will fill my future full

Of gratitude and tenderness

of purposed hours filled.

 

I write at night

with all my sight

that I might

win this fight.

I have come a long way from where I was when I wrote this poem. I am more convinced that I am on my path just taking a more leisurely stroll along it. The medication was a wonder as it allowed me to use all of the education and hard work I had done prior. But the viral disruption that is 2020 has thrown all of us off balance and I am busy figuring out where my children stop and I begin.

And If you enjoyed what you read, subscribe, via the subscription box in the sidebar, to my thrice weekly posts via your emailbox. And visit me on Instagram to see my daily pictures, friend me or like my page on Facebook. Or come find me on Twitter or Pinterest too. I am always practicing Intentional Intouchness so chat at me please. I live for conversations.

And, as always, Thanks to you for your visit.

Reached the Halfway Point on my #100DayProject 2020

Yes, I am 50 days into my one hundred days long art project akamy 100 day challenge aka 100 days of Shalagh. I am halfway through. Honestly, the habit is established in the first two weeks .Reached the Halfway Point on my #100DayProject 2020 on shalavee.com

After that it becomes a given. Up to that point, you may play mindgames with yourself about whether you will finish or not.Reached the Halfway Point on my #100DayProject 2020 on shalavee.com

Once you stop that and just show up unquestionably for a length of time, you become your own superstar.

Reached the Halfway Point on my #100DayProject 2020 on shalavee.com

By the end of the project, no matter how many of your pieces you think suck, you can revel instead on how much you showed up for you, how worth it you are.

Reached the Halfway Point on my #100DayProject 2020 on shalavee.com

And that is worth it. So worth it.

And If you enjoyed what you read, subscribe, via the subscription box in the sidebar, to my thrice weekly posts via your emailbox. And visit me on Instagram to see my daily pictures, friend me or like my page on Facebook. Or come find me on Twitter or Pinterest too. I am always practicing Intentional Intouchness so chat at me please. I live for conversations.

And, as always, Thanks to you for your visit.

Inspired by Maria Shriver’s Sunday Newsletter

I love the inspiration of the online world. The ability to pick how and who you want to be stimulated, inspired, and changed by is under-celebrated. To have the choice to gravitate towards like minds and turn it back inwards when you’ve heard what you needed, that’s an amazing opportunity. I have been inspired by Maria Shriver’s Sunday newsletter during this lockdown period and yesterday’s edition had me thinking per usual.

Maria was out walking with her friend Simon and someone she met posed the question, what three things would you change if you could ? While Maria knew she needed some time to think, her friend “Simon’s three wishes popped out immediately…

One, that we become better listeners in business, in politics, and in our homes,” he said. “Two, that we commit to service, and that people start to do more for others, with no expectation of anything in return. Three, that we commit to human relationships, that family dinners become important again, and that we spend more time with our friends—without our phones present. I hope the balance of how we communicate tips away from typing and back in favor of talking.” She tells, then he added another wish. “Four, that America leads again with virtue and values, not might and money.” Maria was excited about the alliteration. So am I.

I really liked the concept of being of service to others without need for reciprocity. I’ve seen this during this crisis and I personally think it’s always been here. It’s just that the news doesn’t report nice news. Yes, we’ve definitely returned to the “family values” agenda, like it or not. Now Thanksgiving isn’t the only time you have to endlessly suffer your family. But what’s happened from this that we’ve truly been missing, ironically, is how we’re talking to one another through the very devices that have separated us in “normal” times. We’ve been communicating by “facetime” because we need to be seen and heard by each other, not just talked at.Inspired by Maria Shriver's Sunday Newsletter on  shalavee.com

Then Maria Shriver followed up with these thoughts. “I know that when you feel deeply valued, deeply loved, deeply seen, deeply understood, and deeply heard, then you are able to move through the world completely differently. When you feel that way, you intrinsically desire for everyone else to feel that way as well. You will do whatever you can to make it possible for others, one person at a time. ” That is the definition of purpose and of love. I am excited by the intense understanding of one’s worth this implies. I understand that deep and positive communication gets you an understanding of your value, where and how you belong. I understand that’s what faith gives people. I think you get it when you get it.

I am pondering the thoughts of these people and appreciating their words having moved me. And I would like to move the energy of inspiration onward and outwards. Being in a place to give the best of yourself unselfishly is a good place to head for. Feeling though to a destination where you understand what you are meant to pass along to the world is nirvana. And it’s my dream to have that kind of unwaivering faith in myself.

And If you enjoyed what you read, subscribe, via the subscription box in the sidebar, to my thrice weekly posts via your emailbox. And visit me on Instagram to see my daily pictures, friend me or like my page on Facebook. Or come find me on Twitter or Pinterest too. I am always practicing Intentional Intouchness so chat at me please. I live for conversations.

And, as always, Thanks to you for your visit.

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