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Just Keep Swimming : When Perpetual Busyness Isn’t Ideal

I told my husband I felt a little Dory-ish of late. My motto is “Just Keep Swimming”. Generally feeling that the busyness was taking me through my days and I was getting through to get to the other side. Sometimes life is about endurance.

I told him that I missed those days in my distant past when I could be full of myself having known I did something outrageous and righteous, acts of production worthy of pride of accomplishment and feeling like “It’s all good”. I’ve not been feeling that validation for a while.Just Keep Swimming on Shalavee.com

Most days I’m busy just maintaining this ginormous old house and all the people in it. The wash and the food and the dust are managed and then I repeat. Sure I jam in a blog post where necessary, but there’s nothing bigger on my aspiration agenda.

And I think that I give no credit for the job of Mom well done daily but rather judge myself for the other incompletions I live. We collect our judgements of ourselves and when that “Apply” button appears, judgement for a life less-lived, we punch it with a vengeful force. Because what are we worth to ourselves but what we’ve done? What we can show for ourselves? Just Keep Swimming on Shalavee.com

People perpetually want to give credit to ambitious mothers for their good job done mothering but we are blind to that most times. It’s a given to keep them alive. We keep remembering what we valued ourselves for before them. Our looks, our jobs, our minds which are all gone now.=

It wasn’t that I wasn’t getting anything done. I just wasn’t crediting myself for my tasks. This week, I’ve been heaping the credit on myself. I have been busy being handy. I fixed my vintage towel bar and the toilet paper holder which small people inevitably rip off the wall, and a toilet. I installed a new doorbell.

I washed dishes,windows, clothing, and my kitchen floor! And everyday, I arted. And showed up to do my live Facebook broadcast on my birthday. I balanced a checkbook, I fed everyone, and showed up for a wedding. I can say that I may not be the sum of my deeds, but sometimes the deeds need to fill and carry my spirit up to the next soul challenge.Just Keep Swimming on Shalavee.com

Here’s a heads up. I’m setting two big goals for October. First is another Soul Selfie Challenge as promised, from October 10th through the 16th. That’s a week-long Instagram challenge with words and pictures based on soulful prompts. A chance to be a little more forthcoming and vulnerable than we usually are. It was amazing and draining and amazing the last time around this past March.

And October is usually the month when I post every day for the entire month. Posts can be long or short, wordy or just pictures, poems or old posts revisited. But there will be 31 days straight of them. I kinda dread it and then I do it and I’m all proud of myself. Please join the peanut gallery and watch the progress of both these events unfold here on the blog. Sign up in the right hand column to have the posts delivered straight to your email box if you haven’t already. And thanks for joining me at anytime. I appreciate all ears and eyes equally.img_20160913_114002946

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Week Three Of My and Our Creative September

Yes, as if I could learn anymore, this third week of my, and our, creative September (#ourcreativeseptember on Instagram where others joined me !) has brought another few layers of ahas from this month-long creativity challenge. Having moved through the cloud of resistance, I am now stepping into create mode very quickly. As a given now, I don’t have to grapple with “if”.

As for the when of the creating, I try to think and not think about it. Like if you talk about going to a movie too much, you’ll talk yourself right out of going. The creativity needs to be both slightly spontaneous and slightly planned.Week three of our creative September on shalavee.com

This week I really had no plans for what I might like to be doing or trying. Last week’s mixed media attempts were so satisfying that I knew anything that I felt curious about would be just great. And on my birthday weekend, I even played with flowers to satisfy my creativity need/demand.Pastel feather on week 3 of our creative September

pastel-nouveau-poppy on week three of our creative September on Shalavee.com

Pastels are still satisfying my need to prove something to myself. A need to call myself artist. I found the vulture feather that was lost in the house and tried using the black pastel paper I’d almost forgotten I’d bought. I think that piece is really sexy. As for the flower, I’ve tried to draw flowers with the pastels but hadn’t liked the results. So I thought to overcome this loss by just copying an art nouveau poppy picture I adore. And that seemed to satisfy my ego. collage waterlilies on week three of our creative September on Shalavee.com

But what I like most was the mixed media collage and pastels that I used in recreating the lily pond picture. The first one in pastels was done when I was still feeling shaky in my use of pastels. So this feels like confidence in redoing the same picture to see how it turns out. I like it better.

Pastel bee in London on week 3 of our creative September

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The bugs in your city series was just plain fun!! The biggest gift of all I received, one that you can see only if follow along on Instagram, is the arting snowball that began to happen in my community there. One person then another then another joined in for the challenge. And as I watch them supporting one another and others being inspired, I sigh with contentment. Because I am immensely grateful for all those who have offered up to include me in their challenges that I might challenge myself and discover a better more creative way of living. And a way to allow my inner child to come out and play more often and more easily. One last week of creating and then we’ll be slam into the beginning a month strait of posts on the blog! October is coming, remember?

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Tragic Heroine No More

I stumbled recently over a pile of shoulds I was continually building and causing me terrible anxiety. I stopped where I was and shut down all channels of chatter and listened. I knew that the only voice I would trust was the voice of the want. The intentional intuitive voice of my innermost self speaking my truth. Because I was selling her down the river with my shoulds, I’d become a tragic heroine directing and starring in my very own tragedy.Tragic Heroine no more on Shalavee.com

My new motto was “do what makes me happy” because, as my husband says, “If you’re not having fun, you’re not doing it right”. If the thing that I really want is slightly scary, at least a noble scary zone. I’ll be better off facing that fear of the opportunity that I’ve created than one of a path I think I should go. Can’t get that wasted time back. I want to impress me not you.

And then the funniest idea hit me the other day. All the drama of my life, it was self-created. If you believe that you manifest the life that you think you deserve, then you have created whatever you’ve lived for a long time. I’ve just turned 50 and I’d say a good 30 years of my life have been me writing my part as some tragic heroine. And that made me laugh.Tragic Heroine no more on Shalavee.com

Want to banish the bad? You gotta own your part of it. I still have a hangover that says I’ll always have less than I need. I’ll always have more scarcity and then abundance. And I started to think that if I wanted to actually have abundance instead of scarcity, I’d have to rewrite that script then, wouldn’t I.

So here’s my plan. I’m going to do some creative visualizations. See what I really want in my future and then start to make pictures and focus intent. Create mood boards which have to do with both my physical word and my psyche too. I want to be creative and confident in all realms of my life. And I want to acknowledge when I have made these choices and changes that have benefited me.Tragic Heroine no more on Shalavee.com

So no more tragic heroine. More wants instead of shoulds. Tune in and trust my happy. And play everyday. Be unapologetically me. And we’ll see if I don’t become the happy creative positive heroine instead.

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Making Fresh Pasta for the Fresh Tomato Sauce

Usually in August every year, when the tomatoes begin to stack up, I suddenly need to make tomato sauce. I roasted the cherry and grape tomatoes and added them into the sauce for a twist. It was so sweet I had to add a little rice wine vinegar to bring back some acidity.

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And since I’m making fresh tomato sauce, it’s also the perfect time to make homemade egg pasta. There is nothing in the world like fresh pasta. And luckily, the making of the dough is one thing that three-year olds like to help with and can actually help with.Making pasta on Shalavee.com

Making pasta on Shalavee.com

So this time it’s Fiona who cranked my pasta machine handle. And other than cranking it the wrong way several times (“The other way, the other way”), it went pretty well. Until Eamon came in and wanted a turn and she threw a fit and stormed out. Making pasta on Shalavee.com

The process is about as easy as it gets but you do need the machine to do the rolling and cutting of the dough. We’ve gotten our money’s worth out of it alright. And as long as there’s a young one in the house, I’ll have to do less of the work. See this previous post on making the dough for this linguine or raviolis and for more pictures and a recipe.

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Week Two of Our Creative September

I embarked on this second week of creating with a high from my first week. I thought I’d use the excuse to create as a means to change up my mantelpiece styling which I did with a mildly pleasing result. I’m sure I’ll come back at it soon but it was a brain scrub of a sort. But then a conversation with my sister had me thinking about mixed media and the craftroom was cooling down (it’s an enclosed porch and very hot in the Summertime) and calling me.day-2 of 2nd week of our creative september on Shalavee.com

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It never ceases to amaze me the child-like capacity to be thrilled with myself for my art work. And this month, I’m finding a thrill in using a long intended to use medium and allowing for it to morph and mix with other mediums through an almost meditational process of repetition. Where the first week it was pastels, this second week finds me now introducing the pastels to the watercolored encyclopedia pages with great success and effect. day-4 of 2nd week of our creative september on Shalavee.com

Day 6 on the 2nd week of our creative September

This daily arting endeavor is changing me. I knew it would. I just had to commit to allowing for it to change me. I used to use creativity as a thing to torture my inner child with. Like, “No you can’t go out and play until you eat your broccoli” kinda stuff. And my inner child was kept from her one true love, seeing what she could make. And then being proud of herself. To see my declaration of my September intent, go here. And to see the first week, go here.

Day 7 on the 2nd week of our creative September

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